As if life was ever easy.......

So....... today I went to watch the movie Million Dollar Baby.

Fame and fortune was not all I wanted in life, but I did want to make my parents happy, but I guess in my case that isn't possible. My friends are important to me and so is my life, but to see smiles on the faces of the two most important people in my life is all I want. I found out that I failed Physics, and I probably failed Chemistry too, which leaves me with two choices. Either I stay here and repeat Physiscs and Chem and then take two courses in day school, or I go to Pakistan, rip my family apart again, but ensure that my future is secure. What a choice eh?

To know that either one I make is going to ruin my life is not very comforting, but it's all I have right now. I would rather die thatn hurt my parents. But it seems that I already have so there's not much point in saying that now. If someone, anyone reads this and has some advice for me then I'd really appreciate it. I need all the help I can get. But please help because you want to, not because you think I need pity because that's the last thing I'm aiming for roght now.

I have to go, but I"ll write back soon.